I have been doing a lot of praying the last few weeks. My life has been playing out just like I thought that it would. I have no complaints really. Within this year so far I have got a promotion that I have been praying for, I have fixed some much needed money problem, I wrote my first book, grown so much as a mother, and found my life partner. When I say that this year has taken me by surprise I really do mean that.
In the course of trying to figure out my next move and marking things off my prayer wall that I have overcome, I found the thing that I needed to focus my attention on. MY BLOG! I wanted to grow my brand this year. And if I am being honest, for all the wrong reasons! I wanted to make money off it. I wanted to get paid for doing this. And don’t get me wrong, I should! I believe that you should work and spend your life doing the things you love. I love my blog and my readers so much! I love what my life has become because of you! I say it all the time, I never thought that I would affect so many people through these vent sessions. But I have!!
As I am sure you know, the blog was under construction for about three weeks. I want to get more information to you guys and I couldn’t. There were things that I wanted to talk about but I didn’t have my platform. But I was like “Oh well!” I need to make this site perfect to make this money. The last two years of my life has been centered around making more. Not because I am greedy. But because I keep thinking that I want the life and the resources that I had before becoming a mom. But how many of us know that’s not at all possible. Once you decide to have a baby, you decide to give up everything. Regardless of if you are a single mom or not. Naturally your sole responsibility becomes our children.
Anyway, I was just so caught up in the money and really looked at what I had in front of me and noticed, I wasn’t making that much money from it anyway. So I went back to praying. I knew that God had given me the list and the things that I should be praying for this year. All the things that he said would come to pass. And growing my blog was one of those things. But making money from it was not.
Early this year I started to attend this finance course at my church. Really great advice and everything has been coming from this class. The class is a yearlong. The very first day, I told my sister on the way home “The thing is, he is teaching us all this stuff and the first thing you want to do is go home and start doing it now. But you can’t because you aren’t there yet.” And what did I do, two months later I went and tried to implement the things that he showed us. Some of which have been very successful but others that have failed.
I was doing blogging research when I watched this video on Joanna Gaines. So inspiring! If you don’t watch Fixer Upper, you should! In the video she talks about how she had to close her store down and how when God told her it was time to reopen, the success was incredible. I found myself right there in her shoes. Not wanting to accept the defeat of having not conquered the art of making money on my blog and realizing that I needed to let it go. As soon as I decided to do that, God spoke!!
“Erica this is your year to lay the foundation. You can’t build a house without foundation. This year is all about getting you ready for what is to come. You will have everything on that board in due time, but in me there is decency and order!”
When he said that I knew that I needed to do, I stopped the massive work I had planned for my blog and cleared out all the ads that were there. I decided I just wanted to get back to the love of it all! In due time God will tell me when to reopen my store and when to move forward. Until then, fill me up Lord with whatever I need to be successful.