So many times I find myself so stuck with trying to decide if I should say something or if I am right for how I feel about situations. Then I find myself letting a lot of things go. I don’t confront the person that is the real problem because I have people in my ear telling me that’s not right. Don’t say that. Just take it, be the bigger person, you have to deal with it, and some more crap!
Well, I think I am beyond that. I am tired of being the person that sits back and lets someone just walk all over me because the person who should be defending me won’t. So I’ve decided that it’s time to stand up for myself. Nobody can demand your respect for you. Nobody can heal your hurts or speak on your behalf but you.
I don’t think that standing up for yourself means stooping to their level though. As much as I want to, as much as I know I could win this battle, I’d rather win it looking like a saint. So that’s what I am going to do. I’m done sitting back and being pretty. I’m no longer the nice girl in the room. The one that is just super polite because it’s not really my territory. Every room that I walk in, I should own! Every person that encounters me should respect me. And the people who I have to encounter the most should most certainly pay me the respect that I am due.
Anyone who knows me knows that I am one to say whatever I feel and not bite my tongue. Well, in this case I have been doing the opposite just trying to get along to get a long. Will the real Erica Please Stand Up!! No more. I vow to not walk around feeling attacked by the same people countless times just because everyone else would live their lives that way.
The one thing I’ve learned from my Girls here in Philly is that you have to learn to have your own voice. You don’t need another person to justify how you feel. I am allowed to feel however I want. I am allowed to also stand up for myself. This isn’t the old days. We have a voice and regardless of who stands beside me or around me, I have to stand for me! So that’s exactly what I am going to do!